not the actual one but they are all EVIL

However, I have come to realise one major thing: I HATE my library vending machine – it has nothing but chocolate and crisps and maybe one flapjack inside of it… and while i have been making sure i had a good breakfast every morning at 6am before staying there all day til about 11pm.. the rest of the day, well you can imagine.

I have been trying since I finished Uni to not think about what I ate: when all you can think about is your work you tend to forget what it is you are feulling your body with to make you work a bit more.

Okay, so the evil vending machine is put behind us:

Now for the scary news – My friend Kerry’s wedding is just 8 days away! I have tried on the dress, it fits! Last time i wore it as I said I was 9 stone 4… well I’m almost 10 stone again now, must be the evil vending machine’s fault.

I now fill out the top a lot better than I used to, but it’s just a bit too tight around the

little bit of a belly in this dress... i need it flat!!

stomach area… we need to fix this.

Any ideas on just getting rid of stomach weight?

Over and Out H xXx

Porridge

Giant cookie and a cup of tea with sweetnener

a few mini cookies left from a bag the other day

Walkers crisps – big pack

Potato wedges, 3 meatballs and leeks in cheese sauce (yay i didnt have to cook hehe)

Tea (staying with my Grandma for a few days so this will be seen a lot)

Over and Out H xXx

Hey guys, long time no see.

Yes i know, I am bad for not being on here in a while… but the why’s and wherefores of Uni work (and my bed) have called me away for far too long! 

Oh, and my big new TV… hehe 

I have been thinking about what I’ve been eating since I finished the whole giving up thing… and you guys would be horrified… chocolate, crisps, doughnuts (I am actually eating one as I write this), sweets, cookies… the lot.

So, what to do now?

I need your help: I need to know what you guys would stop yourself eating bad food.

I just weighed myself and I have gone up…. I’m not telling you to! Lol.

I need things I can make quickly and that I can take with me to work or to Uni.

Calling all thinkers!

Ah yes, and as of today, my food diary is back up…

Over and Out H xXx

I’m bad, I know.

Yeah this is what I ate.... I'm so annoyed!!

I don’t even know why I did it.

I bought the eggs for Easter Sunday – I knew I would be allowed chocolate and they were on offer at work (I work at Sainsbury’s btw) so I thought why not? I can stop myself, I have before.

So I’ve been 5 and a half weeks without chocolate (39 days), and I still haven’t had any cakes, cookies or biscuits. (yes we know about the toffee thing and mini ice cream, which wasnt on the list but meh) I’d had no chocolate bars.. which was the biggest thing for me.

So what now? Well, I’ve realised if it’s not in the house I can hold out from buying it and then eating it.

I have also realised that stopping yourself when you want something badly will only make you binge on other foods more, as I have done recently: extra cheese, lots of bread, and pastries. Not good.

Overall… I think this Lent thing was a good idea, I learnt that I don’t need chocolate to live: I was perfectly fine and didn’t die without it.

However, I also learnt that denying yourself too much only leads to bingeing… so what to do? Well, just do as they all say, everything in moderation.

Over and Out H xXx

2 x Redbull sugarfree – 18 cals

Blackberries – 10 cals

2 x Redbull sugarfree – 18 cals

2 x espresso with sugar – 50 cals

Chicken and Bacon sandwich – 435 cals

Swede with bulgar wheat – 100 cals

Melon – 140 cals

Total – 946 cals

Cornflakes with milk and sweetener – 175 cals

Strawberries – 40 cals

Squash – 5 cals

Melon and sweetener – 75 cals

Pack of swede (54) with soft cheese (80) – 134 cals

Soup (162) cheese x 2 (250) – 412 cals

3 x crispsbreads – 90 cals

2 x sugarfree Redbull – 18 cals

Cheese – 125 cals

Clementines x 3 – 100

Strawberries – 40

Total = 1117 calories

Squash  – 5 cals

Banana - 95 cals

Mango and Strawberry Tea with sweetener – 5 cals

Strawberries – 40 cals

Roasted veg cous cous – 180

Espresso – 2 cals

Bulgar wheat, sweet potato and leek – 155 cals

2 espresso’s 4 cals

Cous cous – 180 cals

Strawberries – 40 ca;ls

Mango and strawberry tea with sweetener – 5 cals

Total – 896 calories

So I got bored waiting already so I have started counting the calories in all my food.

I shall be reading all the packets of food I eat from and taking a lot of information from a little book I bought online (pictured)

The work begins now... hehe

I don’t plan to have any more than 1400 calories a day, as this is supposed to be the amount you have to lose weight healthily.

Yesterday went absolutely fine, I felt a bit hungry around 3ish when I was at work but I stuck it out for another hour until my break.

It seems to me that if I make sure I eat small amounts of food every few hours then I wont worry about feeling hungry and will just keep going.

So, I think that roughly 5 meals of 200 calories, I’m not going to stick to that religiously as of course I have work and gymmage to do, so that I can always have something little to eat, but its not a humongous meal that’s going to have 1000 calories in it.

Oh and I shall be back at the gym as of tomorrow!

Wish me luck everyone

Over and Out H xXx

Porridge and honey – 250 cal

Veg cous cous and soft cheese – 440 cal

200ml Orange Juice – 84 cal

Bulgar Wheat, sweet potato and leek – 200 cal

Melon, honey and yogurt – 267 cal

Cup of tea – 60 cal

Total = 1301 calories…

Cappachino with extra espresso and a shot of syrup.

Chicken sandwich with bit of cheese, salad, butter and mayo.

cup of tea – one sugar

yogurt and honey

Melon with golden syrup.. quite a lot actually

Fried leeks and cheese with a dash of milk (I know it sounds weird but it’s nice I promise!)

Orange and mango squash